You know that feeling nga naay uban tao nga HAPPY nga naay something BAD na happen sa imo? that feeling nga nag conclude sila na NAGABAAN ka kay wala ka nagbali2x  ug nka hurt ka sa isa katao unintentionally... and ang nakalain pa, dghan tao ga agree nga nagabaan jud ka. and they are happy and rejoicing mrag ang dating kay "Dah! Nagabaan lageh ka!" i know i am not a perfect person. No one is perfect right? I have my own fair share of mistakes and wrong doings. Well let's just say others are happy nga na karma ko.

well thank you for wishing me the worst things in life. it's ok. But there's one thing i want to say... I have the absolute RIGHT to make decisions. i have the right to say NO. What others say can be so exaggerated that you can really be convinced that that person is the victim. Well just make sure you know the REAL story first. Listen to both sides. Don't be one sided. Ok lang man, i understand that maybe some are trying to protect that person. But to be happy that nagabaan ko? Wow! *clap clap clap* ^_^

As another chapter will unfold, another year will come, I am releasing all my heartaches, headaches, hurts, and worries. I will try to get these out of my mind. But these will never be forgotten. The wounds are still fresh. But i want to focus on my family, to focus on my friends, those who are dear to me... God please forgive me for my sins and for judging other people, for hurting others. but I will never ever regret the decisions i made, good or bad, for they are lessons learned.

I also want to thank my family, my Mom, my Lolo, my Bro, and my Ate and for the rest of the family for always being there for me. Though there were problems and trials we encountered, I am glad we had made it, and all is doing well now. I also have patched and fixed things and asked for forgiveness to "someone" already, because i have come to realized that the happiness of my family is a top priority. and i am happy for that! ^_^ <3

Thank you also to my friends, old and new, for being always there for me. I wish we will be friends for life! to my high school buddies, my college friends, my post grad friends, to all my friends! Thank you for everything. You have made my life colorful! :)

May you all have a wonderful Year 2015 ahead! God bless us all always. :)


~Zel

I just browsed through some magazines at home. One of which is the March 2013 issue of Candy Magazine. I suddenly came across an article, and I am sure He guided me to read this article. <3

We are infinite: every moment is a chance to change things for the better.

Like the time that boy broke your heart. 

Once a upon a time there was a girl who fell in love with a boy but he didn't feel the same way so he CRUSHED her heart under the heels of his worn-out Converse sneakers. This is not an uncommon story. But it did happen and it did wreck me in all the ways unrequited love often does.

Here's how great losers turn thing around: 

The heartbreak was an enormous loss. I had lost a friend, a confidante, a movie buddy, and someone I could do life with. But in the middle of that grief, I was given a gift: a chance to watch my friends rise up and help me heal. I had lost a romantic love, yet in my moment of desolation, I was spoiled with great amounts of unconditional love from the people closest to my heart. This gave me a backbone to stand up from the hurt.

Love redeemed me, reminded that I was BEAUTIFUL and WORTHY, and revolutionized my standards in boys. If the Converse-wearing drummer boy hadn't broken my heart, there are dreams I wouldn't have pursued. 

I love where I am right now and love who I am today. And if I had to be brutally honest with you. then I'd have to admit that it was a heartbreak that greatly shaped me. 

  

~Candy Magazine <3